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I think I'm the only person I know without a legit superhero name, and that's mostly just because Cisco hasn't had the chance to hit me with one yet.

[Also because her comicbook counterpart was known as "Isis" and that doesn't really play as well in 2019.]

I don't mind it though. A lot of the time I'd rather be just Zari.

[sinistral]

It's not a bad thing, to not have a superhero name. Or to just want to be yourself. "Just Zari" sounds just fine to me.

[hackedhistory]

I think so too.

[Then, just because she's curious ...]

So why the Winter Soldier?

[sinistral]

[Damn his big mouth. Or would that be fat fingers, considering this is text? Either way he should have anticipated the question would come; the only good thing is that it's probably easier over text than in person.]

They never told me exactly why. Maybe because a large part of my training was in Siberia. Maybe because they kept me on ice when they didn't need me. Maybe they felt it appropriate for the Cold War. I don't know really but it's part of what I am.

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[Zari realizes the second she reads this that she stepped in something she probably shouldn't have. She winces, before starting to tap out a response.]

Sorry. I didn't mean to step into something painful.

[sinistral]

[On the plus side, it's a little easier in text than in person; that helps.]

You didn't. I just can't tell anyone anything more than that because I don't know it. Memory problems.

[hackedhistory]

Brainwashing? ARGUS did some similar stuff back where I'm from. Trying to manipulate people with powers to make weapons.

[sinistral]

That's the polite term for it. It's fine, it was a long time ago.

[hackedhistory]

[She'll take the hint and she'll drop it - at least that aspect of it.]

Is it weird that I think it kind of suits you?

[If she were Sara, she would likely have a pep talk about turning a name given to you by people who were just using you into something positive, but she's not Sara, so she'll save that for whenever the captain decides to swing back around again.]

[sinistral]

Pretending things never happened doesn't make them go away. It's part of what I am, and if I didn't want to acknowledge that, I'd never have told you the name. It's mine now, and that means it's my choice what to do with it.

[He's got conflicting feelings about it, but she doesn't need to know that.]

[hackedhistory]

Good. Sometimes that's the only thing you can do with stuff like that.

[sinistral]

Easier said than done in some cases, but that's also just part of life.

[hackedhistory]

Ain't that the truth.

[sinistral]

Now that we're through the deep dark secret part of the afternoon I feel like I’m obligated to tell you not to mention it to Steve unless he brings it up.

[hackedhistory]

Don't bring up the sore subject. Got it.

[She can see how close they are, something that goes deeper than most of her friendships. She also knows how Steve carries his guilt around, so treading on painful memories is probably not the best idea.]